My Justin and Ian!

Wow!!..What can i say about Ian and Justin Brown..except that I am the proudest Mommy on earth!!

They left behind their busy lives to came to Italy to stand by my side as i got married!!    

They encourage me to take Julian's name!

They have always supported our love, despite the distance that is now between us!...They know how much I love them..and that there is never any distance in our hearts.  

They trust Julian..To take care of their Mom.  They know he is a good man who has all of our best interests at heart.

They opened their heart and arms for their little sister!

and even babysat her on occasion:)

They held my hands, purse, flowers, umbrella, and 2 extra pair of shoes..:) ..they put up with me doing things a newlywed or bride would do, but a Mother should NEVER do!..:)..they made me giggle when i wanted to cry..they offered their shoulders for me to lean on...they were always close by if i needed them..and did whatever they needed to ensure my day was the most beautiful day of my life.

They consider Julian's family..their family.  They enjoyed every moment with the entire Aydt family.

an email to Ian and Justin dated June 15, 2013

Hi Ian and Justin...! Hi My  guys!!

You do both understand that being born to a mother..makes you a "little boy" forever...to her!..you do know that right?

hehe..i love you two..wow!!.more than you can ever know or understand..

and i am so very proud of both of you!..wow!!..and you are so good together and happy and having so much fun..and that in wonderful!..and makes me very happy.

I am also great!..I am completely in love with Julian..and he is completely in love with me.  Our mutual respect, love and commitment is quite remarkable.  There is nothing he wouldn't do for me...and nothing I wouldn't do for him:)

So our wedding day is 41 days away.  I am the busiest, most excited "bride to be" that you could imagine..I still need to arrange your trains from Milan to Verona, get a document from Canada and then get it translated into German so we can legally get married, find the right lipstick, (it has to be drinkable, eatable, kissable, and perfect for pictures allll day.  We will be followed by a photographer for about 6 hours..:)..Julian and I are very excited and certain about our commitment to each other..We are excited to become husband and wife.

I am still working on how my hair should look??? up? down? half up and half down? To have my hair and makeup done in CT would cost about 400-500 euro..so, of course, i am doing my own..but it has to be professional..and worthy of a bride..so its a big deal!

So this is all a big deal..our wedding day is full of love and surprises..and it is a lot of fun to plan...and will be even more amazing on Juy 27th...AND I AM THRILLED TO HAVE YOU GUYS WITH ME TO SHARE IT WITH ME:)..

and i want to give you a rough idea of what "our" day will look like.  of course this is all subject to change..as we arrive in Cinque Terre..and have a look around..and have our wedding rehearsal on the 26th at..?? hmm..i forget the time..

BEFORE THE CEREMONY WITH MY BOYS!

At 1:00 you guys will come to Lynn's and my room to get me.  (yes i will stay with Lynn the night before the wedding)..and i am planning at least 1.5 hours (before the ceremony)..for just you guys and me...to walk around Vernassa...and visit our favourite bars and cafes..and just relax and spend some time together..and i want this time to be extra special for the 3 of us.  Yes, you guys will be helping me with my flowers and i will have a sun umbrella and a fan..and probably an extra pair of shoes..A bride requires a few extra essentials to keep her comfortable and beautiful on her wedding day, you know!!

...and the guy at the tie store yesterday...referred to you two, my sons, on my wedding day as;  My bodyguards..i thought this was funny and appropriate..He had asked me if you guys were big or small..and i showed him..wide shoulders and big arms..and he said this..

so, the day is completely choreographed..and carefully planned out!!..and Mom will be VERY emotional..so you guys will have to take care of me..before the ceremony..this is your job...as my BOYS!!..this is your duty before the ceremony..cause after the ceremony..I will be Julian's wife..and then it will be his duty to take care of me...(this is the symbolism of your role before the ceremony and Julian's role afterwards)..that is the role of the person "carefully" chosen to walk a bride down the aisle..it's a symbol of a change in a Bride's life...

so...PLEASE guys!! hehe please keep me clean, sober, no tears on my perfect makeup and hold my bouquet...and maybe my dress lmao!!..while i go pee!!..hehe!!..usually this is the job of the Maid of Honour..but because your Mom has insisted on time alone with her boys before the ceremony..hehe..well!..uhh..i guess you guys are going to have to fill in for a while..haha!!..this makes me laugh..i can see it now..in the Blue Marlin (Ian ask Justin about this)..Justin..remember what the bathroom looks like..can you see two of us in there together..omg..wasn't it a hole in the floor??? omg!..can you imagine if i want to pee there...haha!!..maybe it will take all 3 of us to pull this off..to keep my dress out of the hole..haha!!..Ian, this is reminding me of when i needed to pee New Years Eve in Barcelona..remember?? hahahahaha!!.all sounds like normal Bodyguard stuff!!:)

and you will both look absolutely awesome and HOT in your black suits..and black ties..and our pictures together..me in white and pink and you guys in black will look stunning..and we will have these pictures forever!..to remember this incredible day and our 10  day adventure we are about to embark on..and it's very special to go back to Cinque Terre with Justin..we loved it there so much!!..and  Of EVERYONE that's going..only Justin and i have ever been to Cinque Terre before..WOW!!..cool!!..and you will love it there too, Ian...just like we loved the Amalfi Coast..Remember..our day with "our" dog?:)

and i am very excited to spend this time with you!!..my last hours as a Brown before I become an Aydt..BUT OF COURSE, I WILL ALWAYS BE A BROWN!!..hehe..(don't tell Julian..but we know, i will ALWAYS be a Brown!!..Hello!!..hehe)

then at 14:29 we will take a train from Vernassa to Monterosso...just the 3 of us..EVERYBODY else will already be there and waiting for us..at San Francesco Terrace..this is where the ceremony will be held...:) overlooking the Mediterranean Sea..OMG!!

and when we arrive..Lynn will be waiting for us to fix my hair and makeup..and we will help you guys get ready..and then...we will help Lynn get ready..hehe..and then .Lynn will go out to where Julian and Oliver are standing at the front of the ceremony..

WALKING YOUR MOM DOWN THE AISLE

and it's just the 3 of us again..

and then our music will begin....and we will come out to the top of the stairs....and everyone will be waiting for us to emerge..

and your Mom will be VERY emotional...to be with My Sons at this moment is Incredible..and a dream for me..to have you both walk me down the aisle..is a Mother's dream.

so it is VERY special..and you will have to remind me not to cry at that moment...hehe..:)

and then we will spend a few seconds, at the top of the stairs, in front of everyone,  talking to each other..we have to remember that this moment is ours..the 3 of us!!!...until you kiss me and release me to go become Karen Aydt..this is our time together..we don't have to think about anything or anyone else..I know my thoughts and eyes will be on YOU!..so i will tell you when you can go to Julian..hehe:)  cause i'm not going to let you go until i have the time i want with both of you to tell you how much i love you...I know I will insist on this moment..THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEeN WAITING FOR..TO SHOW THE WORLD NOT ONLY HOW MUCH I LOVE JULIAN..BUT ALSO HOW MUCH I LOVE MY SONS..!!....WE have been a team, the 3 of us!!..and together so much..!!all through your lives..and especially in the past 7 years or so..you both have stood by me..and watched over me..and loved me..and you have always been there when i needed you..and you always let me cry on your shoulders..and you let me be me..and you always gave me a safe warm place to come home to!! You are the most important people in the world to me..You are MY SONS!!..(and mom is crying already)..ohoh!!

and just because i marry Julian and change my last name..this means nothing!!..You are my sons!..and i love you and respect you and completely trust you..and appreciate you!

AND THIS IS OUR MOMENT!!

A MOMENT WITH JULIAN...WHO IS ABOUT TO BECOME MY HUSBAND,

and we FIVE..Julian, Karen, Ian, Justin and Anna are about to become a family!!

my blog name (for the past year) is freetobe5....this is the family unit Julian and I have been working towards..this is our dream..you are our family!..and we are yours!! Always and Forever!

We want to see you in Europe EVERY year..for at least a week or two or more!!....and we will come to Canada at least twice a year to be with you..and our home is ALWAYS your home..!!

..and then when you leave me there, at the top of the stairs,...when i tell you it's ok for you to go!!!:)..Yes, Bridezilla will let you know when it's ok to go!! ..you will together walk to Julian..and give him your love and best wishes.....and i hope you feel and know deep in your hearts that he is the man for me...to love me and care for me for the rest of my life..and you MUST KNOW...that EVERYTIME i get lonely for you..Julian says "we should send you home to see Ian and Justin"..he never cares about money or himself..he cares VERY much that i have the time with you..and you get to see your Mom..as often as we want..love is never about being practicle...is there enough money?  love is about our heart..getting and feeling what we need and want!..and if i need and want you..then i will come home to you....

for Julian and I.. we always always talk about our 3 kids..

..so you can tell him anything you want at that moment..that moment is for you and Julian!!..and you can shake his hand or hug him which ever you want to do..and then you, My Lovely Ian and Justin, will take your place..at the front of the ceremony beside Oliver..to stand by my side..as i marry Julian!!

I LOVE YOU!..WOW!!